What Others Are Saying
- I am afraid of losing my partner and my job
- Emotional numbness
- I feel empty inside and I don't know why.
- I'm struggling to be there for my friend. I hope i could be her so I could tak away all her pain and she would all right. I'd suffer and die but I'd alright with it.
- Financial and future
- today i can say im okay, but theres just not even one day without stress. im stressing myself a lot everyday but i try to think but something else and that works. bad thoughts come back as always but i keep doing the same thing all over again. i feel like others dont go through the same things i do, because they seem fine they have fun and a lot of friends and they are actually living their life not just being physically here and dead inside. i will sound a little bit selfish, but hearing them saying how they hate life because they dont have anyone. literally you have a lot of people in your life, you have a whole family that loves you, you are pretty which makes everything easier for you. meanwhile im here knowing i want to die and accepted it and how everyone hates me ignores me a dont have anyone or wont have anyone. you have a whole life that is in front of you but i dont. and i accepted it i mean yes it kinda makes me sad but like i said i accepted it im okay with it i wont try to change it anymore. if it changes ten it changes. i guess we really dont know whats happening in others people lives. we cant judge them but i gotta say it made me feel like no one really knows me which is actually true. someone told me a dont let people close to me and i was like yeah i already know bad not thing about it too much but then i really started thing about it and wow. i wasnt my whole life like this, i dont let people close to me because ive been hurt as a child a lot with this stuff, like letting people close to me and loving them with my whole heart but that person always realized im not enough and they found someome else it ended up me being sad and alone watching that one i loved leaving me for someone else- well thats why i feel like i dont matter and that everyone will leave me. that i will never be enough. thats why i dont let people close to e, everoyne will hurt me and leave me anyway so why try. i dont even let my family close to me. thats has been bothering me last time- how im not close to my family. not to my aunts uncles cousins.... just nothing. i dont have that relationship with them like i should have. i want but iat te same time i dont. i dont feel comfortable around them because i barely speak to the, feels like he is the only chance. i dont want to put pressure on him. dont want him to feel like he has to save me or something, but i know he can save me. i wont tell him that. if things dont work out he will think its his fault because he could save me.
- today i realized something.. i was laughing at something like videos or i was just on my phone and something made me laugh. for a few min i forgot all the horrible things that are happening. because i forgot it made me think how im doing better maybe i was overreacting or maybe im not that sure about my death but them booom.... i closed my phone and all the reality came back. the thing i realized is no im not better that was just a second of feeling no anxiety. my point is thats not a real life watching a video that will make you laugh then back to reality. to that sad anxious horrible everyday reality. i accepted that i dont want to live anymore and i want my life to end. it is my decision right.
- I don't enjoy anything
- my teacher is an asshole
- I am not good enough
- Please
- im not a good person, worthless and i dont really deserve to complain about anything, im a terrible person and people just dont know that, im sure everyone secretly hates me deep down in their hearts, but they just put up w me, they 'tolerate' my presence, tho i always act good and that deceives them,, esp my friends into thinking im a good person, they 'love' me but they wont anymore if they knew the true me,, im vile and disgusting and im just waiting for them to figure out how horrible i am so they could finally see the true me and leave me as they should.
- I've mostly accepted that I'm not fine and that's OK, there's no real need to be fine. Though life does get quite dull at times, especially when you have high intelligence, since it causes you to wonder and look up things. Ignorance is bliss they say.. Anyway to anyone reading this or to future me, it still feels like I'm on the curve up so that's good. Although I must say it does get quite boring in life, especially in the weekends when you want to do something, but have no one to do it with, making you feel like not doing it, which in turn brings you down. My advice to future me or anyone else reading this and feeling similarly, you might think "oh I'm only distracting myself from my sadness" and while that may be true, is that really so bad? If it makes you happy I say do it, you miss every shot you don't take. But also remember to get time for yourself if you need it. That's it for this time, Tils signing out! ☺️
- I've experienced some stuff online, i could talk about it to the people i know, and i dont think they would dislike me for it, its just... I don't think they would ever really see me in the same way, and the fun experiences wouldn't ever feel the same again either..
- I hate myself. I hate— I want to—Not allowed to say that. You know what. I want to you know what.
- I feel empty
- Something really humiliating happened to me today and I can't stop thinking about it. Also, on a more serious note that should be my number one priority but my brain doesn't work that way, my friend told me they really, seriously, genuinely want to kill themselves, and the last time they were like that they were hospitalized for a long time. Also also, my sibling hasn't said a word to me in a month and they matter more than anyone else in the world, and I love them so much, and they ARE my world and my reason for not killing myself, and they've decided to pretend I don't exist and I can't deal with it.
- My family is pretending I don't exist. My life makes me miserable. I can only see it getting worse from here. I want to be dead.
- WW III
- I feel really unahppy
- yea
- even worse than before? no i dont think so.. just the same thing over and over again. everytime i get power i start to do things trying to be okay telling myself i can do this and how strong i am at the end of it i alwayes end up like this, why god wont give me one thing i really want and need? just this one thing god please take me away from here i cant do this anymore. i have nightmares about dissapointing poeple and them being mad at me and me being a failure. i wake up and instantly start crying. i just cry with the feeling that i cant do anything about it anymore or maybe i could but i really dont want anymore. all i want is to leave this i want dont want to live. really no. why god? i know maybe you see my future or maybe its not my time yet. but whatever my future is... i give up on it. i dont want it anymore...i dont want to be here. im just doing problems to the people i love. theyre mad at me for everything. breathing, talking... honestly im tired of mmyself talking and breathing. even it looks like he doesnt care anymore so im done. is the only one who truly loves me god? when i cant even do that to myself? im begging him to take me away from here. please.
- My mind races at night and I can’t seem to slow it down to enjoy anything. I go and go and go during the day and then at night I am bored and nothing feels super engaging to my brain. It comes and goes and I will pick up a hobby for a week or a month or a year and then get bored and move on to something else. Lately it’s been much worse.
- Self image
- I can't pass as a guy; my chest and my voice continue to make me more likely to start crying and not want to go outside because of how people perceive me.
- Suicide
- Que me quede sola al terminar mi relación.
- I hate being alone but all I ever end up doing is pushing people away or hurting the people I love. I want to change because everyone says I'm a good person on the inside, but my emotions cause me to do things I never should do.
- self-esteem, letting people go, anxiety, being happy
- self worth isolation stress
- what if I can't do it? What if I fail again?
- future parent
- I'm not being as attentive and good as I have before.
- i am very depressed about my relationship i feel like im a nobody that i should not be on this earth,i am struggling finacally and physically and emotionally and mentally eeryday
- I'm struggling with the idea that I have to accept less in my love life and settle just because I want someone to love me and I don't have the right to be picky.
- im staring to count caloris and avoi food, i have fear that the only person that i like in my school get tried of me and im lonly cus all my friends left my school
- my friends make me feel bad and like i have just a void in my stomash, i know that thaey realy need me because they are pasing a bad moment but i just wanna leve them
- Suicide anger grustration
- Life isn’t really worth ANY effort anymore so why bother with ANYTHING? Why try to do better?
- My life, pay present and future. From work, home, family, kids, spouse, financial, stability, paranoia
- if i only listened to my family i wouldnt have been sexual assaulted
- my family doesnt really want me around
- i can't stop thinking about my future and myself,i've been too sad and i cry all the time i feel lonely in many ways
- i've been overthinking about myself, i don't feel good with it, i realized that i have to change many things but i don't like to talk with anyone,it's hard for me i'm 18 years old, i'm not working and i don't know what to do with many things i feel lost becuase i've never have a fahter before and i think that, that is something makes me feel like that
- Emotional stressed out
- I feel ugly all the time. I always try to rush to my seat because I don’t want people looking at me too much. I feel fat and that no one will every find me attractive or pretty in a romantic way. I feel unlovable.
- Grieving the loss of a 21 year marriage.
- hopeless
- Empezar la secundaria
- To hat there's no one who really cares about me.
- im failing at being a mother
- I am feeling very depressed.....I hate my body....I feel very dull and empty....I'm not happy
- My anxiety and depression are going to come back and it will so hard to go away this time
- How am I going to make ends meet
- being suicidal. im tryna get better (quit self-harm, having a normal eating habit, etc)
- depression, dissociation, anxiety disorder, and possibly others
- Anger
- survival mode
- I have so many thoughts spinning in my head like a wheel game that won’t stop I don’t know what I think anymore
- why do i cry when people yell at me?
- Suicide
- My relationship
- my body is what's bringing me down the most.
- my thighs are so thick and fat
- I think everyone I love hates me
- I feel like I've been pressured from all sides, be it my family, my friends, or even my higherups. Yes, living as a student isn't half bad, at least I could distract myself with any work available such as getting into an organization. But then it never made me feel relieved. It distracts me for a short while.
- I'm done hiding my true emotions and acting like it's fine, Because IT'S NOT FINE
- self harm
- I did horribly on my honors math test and I am going to fail.
- That I can't turn my life around. I'm about to lose everything and I don't know how or why my talents and skills have no value.
- I want to do my homework, and play on my phone, and sleep, and talk to someone, and do alot of different things but it seems i never have enough hours in the day for me to do them all.
- It's 1:22AM, today is the last day of school. Well I still need to sleep but technically it already the 2nd. I just want to cry and feel bad about myself. That's all I want to do but my fucking body won't let me. I would be completely broken if I didn't have vanessa to be honest. I won't ever commit suicide because I can't do that to my mom, but vanessa saved me. I have no clue where I would be without her. Probably trapped in a relationship with medical student that I need more than wanted because I would have had no one else. Well I guess thats it for now. And yes. I am taking a shit while typing this.
- I am struggling with thinking about how to quit my job and find a new one. More worried about how I’ll deliver the news to a new employer and the old one.
- sad,asleep, hopeless, idk, life, my life, my health,
- Family Fights
- I'm regressing more and more back to my old ways. I'm starting to not be the way I really am. Ever since I looked up porn 3 times last night and when Mom and Dad talked to me about what I'm going through, I've been regressing. God, please heal me so I don't lose what makes me the real me. Please do show me the truth. Please heal me so I can talk to you and be honest and not be afraid to talk about the truth and what I'm feeling and what I'm going through. Please heal me from all the hurt I may have and from the depression. Please heal me so I don't believe in any of the lies. I will not rely on my own intelligence. I will rely on You. I will wait on You. Please heal me so I can talk to you and be the real me. Please heal me from the hurt caused by emotional abuse and narcissism.
- I read from 2 websites at work today that made my current state worse. It feels like I'm regressing back to my old ways and it feels as if I have trapped anxiety and/or emotions from reading them. One website was about smiling depression, specifically the part that said, "It's important to find ways to reach the point where you don't need to force out a smile, but so it comes naturally and comfortably," the other was 7 signs about spiritual transformations, specifically the part that said, "Let your brain do it's thing." I'm having a lot of trouble being the real me. I will go to God and trust in Him.
- My wife is the love of my life and became very angry with me last night
- My husband doesn’t love me, he’s cheating.
- I would be better off dead
- Problem related to my career. I am 22 year old but still not cleared about my career. Initially I was interested in medical career but right now I am so confused and not having interest in anything.
- i messed relationships up
- anxiety
- anxiety
- i messed up relationships
- What are we actually doing being in this world .......is this even real
- If i will ever be enough, if i am the one they need
- Relationship
- school ad loneliness
- I feel overwhelmed with school, and I feel like a failure for being incapable of completing the realistic expectations/goals I set for myself that day. I feel like I take forever/way too long to complete tasks for school when they shouldn't. For example, today I told needed to write my article (originally due today) and prepare my faux-direct for tomorrow morning's evaluation. It is now 20h44 and I have completed none of those two basic tasks. No matter where I am, I feel incapable on focusing on the job in front of me, and let myself get lost in rabbit-holes to avoid my school work. But it's not always that I feel this crappy. Plus, I never ever submit work late, I generally force myself to hand it in on time, even if it means a lack of sleep or nutrition. I wish I could be efficient and not dumb like everybody else, aka a normal person.
- That my friends are aren’t good friends and they don’t need me as much as I need them.
- Frustración, Desánimo
- Inutil , fea , estupida , no sirve para nada
- I feel like no matter how much i work hard i will always be in the same place. Everyone will move on and i will remain here.
- I lost my best friend my love of my life.. an can't seem to get over it an heere I am alone typing on this phone ..stupid
- Focusing on myself
- How to save myself from negative thought and killing and being happy and hope.
- I overshared
- My self esteem and ability to focus
- Hopeless
- Am I enough?
- what's the point, Im old
- Tryin not to punch everyone I past today!
- I don't have enough time in the day to do the things I need to do.
- Suicide
- not being good enough
- Am i that unworthy that he cheated on me will he feel guilty will he come back will we be back together
- i have noticed that when i come across a difficult word that i know the meaning of i tend to explain it to myself
- why do i feel angry all the time
- Self harm
- Worry about how someone else will react to a negative outcome.
- suicide of family
- No sexual activity in 3 decades
- I'm ready to die and if I dropped dead right now I wouldn't care
- Loniless and no friends
- That I might not have submitted my exam
- Suicide